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kellan_the_tabbyI think I probably got to sleep around 4 this morning, since Lewis is away. On the up side, Chocolate decided to actually sleep next to me for once, and I enjoyed that thoroughly.
Had to go to work, though, and I expected to be rather fuzzy. I was, but I did a better job of staying with it and actually being useful than usual, mostly by changing my self-motivation methods...
See, I realized a week or so ago (and forgot to talk about it here, bad Kate...) that when I'm having a hard time getting motivated, or staying on focus, or otherwise generally not doing very well at the task at the moment, I get really negative at myself. 'Hey, stupid-head, what'd ya do that for' and 'get off yer ass and get moving' and 'just shut up and stop whining and _do_ it' and stuff like that.
It gets me moving, but I'm not real happy about it.
So...today I tried to keep moving without being a jerk at myself about it. And whaddaya know, it worked...I was still tired, and I was still kind of grumpy, but less grumpy and more useful than usual when I'm this behind on sleep.
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meradudd, yeah, you were right and I _am_ too hard on myself...
Fight practice tonight, except that what with the shire meeting and it being so close to Pennsic I think we only had two people in armor, and one was a grownup and one was a page. We had to talk Gunnar and Jenny Becca out of trying to fight each other _anyway_, but they're both thugs that way...
Spent a tense hour or so trying to help convince someone I don't know well that she _really_ had to get out of her grandparents' place (fairly nasty mental abuse going on) _and_ that no, really, we _would_ do what we could to help her...I hope she believes us and takes us up on it.
At the very least, we got her to laugh a couple times. That's got to help.
Off to bed. Lewis gets back tomorrow.
Edit: Forgot to hit the 'go' button to post this until just now, but I _did_ write it last night...
Had to go to work, though, and I expected to be rather fuzzy. I was, but I did a better job of staying with it and actually being useful than usual, mostly by changing my self-motivation methods...
See, I realized a week or so ago (and forgot to talk about it here, bad Kate...) that when I'm having a hard time getting motivated, or staying on focus, or otherwise generally not doing very well at the task at the moment, I get really negative at myself. 'Hey, stupid-head, what'd ya do that for' and 'get off yer ass and get moving' and 'just shut up and stop whining and _do_ it' and stuff like that.
It gets me moving, but I'm not real happy about it.
So...today I tried to keep moving without being a jerk at myself about it. And whaddaya know, it worked...I was still tired, and I was still kind of grumpy, but less grumpy and more useful than usual when I'm this behind on sleep.
meradudd, yeah, you were right and I _am_ too hard on myself...Fight practice tonight, except that what with the shire meeting and it being so close to Pennsic I think we only had two people in armor, and one was a grownup and one was a page. We had to talk Gunnar and Jenny Becca out of trying to fight each other _anyway_, but they're both thugs that way...
Spent a tense hour or so trying to help convince someone I don't know well that she _really_ had to get out of her grandparents' place (fairly nasty mental abuse going on) _and_ that no, really, we _would_ do what we could to help her...I hope she believes us and takes us up on it.
At the very least, we got her to laugh a couple times. That's got to help.
Off to bed. Lewis gets back tomorrow.
Edit: Forgot to hit the 'go' button to post this until just now, but I _did_ write it last night...
