yeah so uh

what with one thing & another I haven't posted anything that isn't EXTREMELY public here in a time period, cos it's all been crossposts from the business website

which means there's some personal stuff many of y'all don't know, on account of what if my mom reads my business blog YES I AM A GROWN-ASS ADULT also I'd like to stay in the will thank

so HI my name is Kellan & it turns out I'm a guy

*pauses for shocked reactions*

*waits*

*waits*

... yeah okay fair

I've been on T since June & LET ME TELL YOU I AM SO ANGRY, I knew people running on testosterone built muscle more easily BUT I DID NOT KNOW HOW EASILY like. I work out once & suddenly biceps. I spend a week chopping wood & am suddenly stronk enough to go buy the heavier axe. WHAT THE SHIT, Y'ALL WERE HOLDING OUT ON ME HERE.

also I have gone from 'plausibly deniable upper lip hair' to 'yep that's a fuckin mustache' & have the saddest trans guy soul patch ever

second puberty has been mostly fine except for the [REDACTED] HOLY CATS I WAS NOT READY

I do want my dwarf beard NOW though

gonna try to keep posting stuff like this here because. it's been SO LONG since I wrote about what's actually going on in my life & apparently now is the time to start doing that

I'll probably be changing my username in a couple weeks, I'm thinking kellan-tabby but we'll see