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kellan_the_tabbyI'd hoped to take time for myself weekend before last, and I totally succeeded there. Saturday I went to a local historical farm for the annual sheep shearing -- along with demonstrations of spinning, woodworking, rug-making, and making brooms. It was pretty awesome, I talked to people who are geeks about their chosen thing and that always makes me happy, and I learned a bunch about brooms and the making and history thereof. Sat and watched the guy for a while -- not long enough to actually make an entire broom, but I could turn my hand to parts of the project, I think.
Sunday I went down to Philly to watch a vintage base ball game (yes, that's how it's spelled). Civil War era rules, uniforms, and moustaches. No gloves (ow). Just a bunch of guys who play because they love the game, and isn't that what it's supposed to be about?
Plus I brought Loiosh, because he's my sanity. He got petted by the Deputy Mayor of Philadelphia (and lots of other people), caught a cricket, and got to scare the crap out of someone's puppy who'd never met a cat before.
Also the game went on forever, so I was out of the house for hours and hours. BEST.
Last week I finally got caught up on making soap and got ready for the event this weekend, which was...small, and I only added $40 to the RV fund, and that's less than $200 this month, and at this rate I'm gonna be living with my mother forever.
Sunday I'd thought to go to a local stitch & bitch, but I never heard back from the host and was also feeling _very_ antisocial after the event, so I wound up cleaning my entire 'apartment'. Which was kinda nice, especially as my sister didn't visit so it was just me and Mom. And cleaning is definitely an 'approved activity', so it was all right.
Yesterday I had a LOT of energy and opened a store on Zibbet. They made it pretty easy -- I could import most of the information right from Etsy and just edit a little. I don't plan to advertise it at all (any advertising gets pointed at the main site) but I might pick up some sales from people who regularly shop Zibbet, so I figured what the heck.
Today I...feel like crap and want to go back to bed. I feel like the business is getting nowhere, that I'll be stuck here forever. I'm basically unemployable by anyone other than like Target or something, so it's not like going and getting a job is any sort of option. I'd make slightly more at a retail job than I am now, but I'd lose my weekends, so I wouldn't be able to do shows, and I wouldn't have the spare energy to dedicate much to the business. I guess theoretically I could work retail until I've saved up enough for an RV _and_ to support me while I built the business _back_ up to where it'd be enough to live on, but it just seems like so many steps backwards.
I feel like I'm missing a really obvious option, and I can't think of what it is, and it's making me really anxious and I hate it, I just keep going round in circles in my head and can't come up with anything other than 'just keep at it and someday in a zillion years it'll be enough'. But I don't know if I can keep this up that long.
Sunday I went down to Philly to watch a vintage base ball game (yes, that's how it's spelled). Civil War era rules, uniforms, and moustaches. No gloves (ow). Just a bunch of guys who play because they love the game, and isn't that what it's supposed to be about?
Plus I brought Loiosh, because he's my sanity. He got petted by the Deputy Mayor of Philadelphia (and lots of other people), caught a cricket, and got to scare the crap out of someone's puppy who'd never met a cat before.
Also the game went on forever, so I was out of the house for hours and hours. BEST.
Last week I finally got caught up on making soap and got ready for the event this weekend, which was...small, and I only added $40 to the RV fund, and that's less than $200 this month, and at this rate I'm gonna be living with my mother forever.
Sunday I'd thought to go to a local stitch & bitch, but I never heard back from the host and was also feeling _very_ antisocial after the event, so I wound up cleaning my entire 'apartment'. Which was kinda nice, especially as my sister didn't visit so it was just me and Mom. And cleaning is definitely an 'approved activity', so it was all right.
Yesterday I had a LOT of energy and opened a store on Zibbet. They made it pretty easy -- I could import most of the information right from Etsy and just edit a little. I don't plan to advertise it at all (any advertising gets pointed at the main site) but I might pick up some sales from people who regularly shop Zibbet, so I figured what the heck.
Today I...feel like crap and want to go back to bed. I feel like the business is getting nowhere, that I'll be stuck here forever. I'm basically unemployable by anyone other than like Target or something, so it's not like going and getting a job is any sort of option. I'd make slightly more at a retail job than I am now, but I'd lose my weekends, so I wouldn't be able to do shows, and I wouldn't have the spare energy to dedicate much to the business. I guess theoretically I could work retail until I've saved up enough for an RV _and_ to support me while I built the business _back_ up to where it'd be enough to live on, but it just seems like so many steps backwards.
I feel like I'm missing a really obvious option, and I can't think of what it is, and it's making me really anxious and I hate it, I just keep going round in circles in my head and can't come up with anything other than 'just keep at it and someday in a zillion years it'll be enough'. But I don't know if I can keep this up that long.
