Updateyness

[kellan_the_tabby]

First off: Apparently rumors are going around. No, Lewis has never thrown plates at me. No, Lewis has never hit me in anger. (He's hit me in armor, when he was teaching me how to fight, but that doesn't count.) Yes, I was (and am) afraid of him. I've realized that, while his actions _may_ have caused the fear, they weren't a _reason_ for me to fear. Not a rational one.

The last week has been pretty much shit, but I've figured a lot of things out. I'm not sleeping worth much, I have a fairly constant stomachache, and I have to watch or I'll spend all day in bed. Yes, folks, this is depression.

I'm starting to claw out of it. Making myself get up, making myself do things. Get out of the house. Be with people. I'm assured that that will help, eventually.

Right now? One day, one minute at a time.

Comments

[montuos]

*hugs* I know it's not easy.

One simple thing you can do that helps pull you up out of depression: Get bright colors around you; wear bright colors. For me, it was yellow that really did it. It really does make a difference.

[anda.livejournal.com]

I also find, for myself, that sunlight (or full-spectrum lightbulbs) are helpful.

I'd also echo what wulfsdottir said, below.

[wulfsdottir.livejournal.com]

{hugs}

Don't forget that it's also normal to be depressed at a time like this. That doesn't mean you shouldn't take steps to "claw out of it" - it just means that you should be mindful to not start berating yourself for feeling that way.

[shrieking-ell.livejournal.com]

I wish i was closer to you. You could visit with my kendo class. they never fail to make me feel better.

*hugs*

(I can write you fic, if you want. gimme a prompt and you'll have smut in the morning)

[kellan_the_tabby]

Somehow I missed this before.

Prompt. James/Elizabeth, H/C. Do you write any Elizabeth? (I'm kinda brainless right now.) If not, Jack/James would be happy.

[shrieking-ell.livejournal.com]

I can do James/Elizabeth, anything for you dear :-) Look for it on Monday or so, I will be off beating folk with sticks all weekend...

*hugs and more hugs*

[magpiemss.livejournal.com]

*HUGS* you have friends who love and care about you; if you need it let them take care of you too.

[fritzi.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

Much love.

[herveus.livejournal.com]

First, *hugs*

Wow. Those are "interesting" rumors. I wonder who is going around making shit up? No, I don't really want to know...

It's good to hear you being rational about your fear. It can help you make it go away if you can put a name on it.

Depression sucks, but, I suppose, you have something to be depressed about (as a short term thing). Is there anything I can do to help you out? You have my cell phone number...

[flannelbutch.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[nostasia.livejournal.com]

*Hugs* If there is anything Blaise or I can do to help, let us know.

[amykb.livejournal.com]

If you want to get out and about, you are always welcome to stop by for a dose of the continuing adventures of the Marymonster and The Bear. (Yesterday she decided he had a fever, so she was soaking his head with cold water)

Dinner isn't always fancy, but if you let me know that you want to come by, there will be enough...and I can always pull together something for lunch, or we can go out if you want.

Pretending helps sometimes

[maziemaus.livejournal.com]

I understand that if you get up and go about your business, one day you'll notice that it's working. We are here, in any combination, with hot tea, good food, and love.

Re: Pretending helps sometimes

[mammabearpa.livejournal.com]

I second that! It took alot of pretending to have a life to get past the shock of Jeff handing me divorce papers on July 5, 2005. But you know what, I am a better person and mother without him.
Jeffery (Edward in the SCA "the Canadian guy") are here if you ever want to hang out sometime. We always have an arry of tea and coffee... and expresso :) I learned from the best (Thanks, Maziemaus) to have plenty of yummys on hand :)